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Oi. Enough now, thank you, Universe.
John's BIL had a stroke last week. Walking, talking, but with other impairments that look to be permanent. *sigh*
Thursday's evaluation for Rori went OK. But. It took me a while, but I'd come to terms with being considered High Risk when I'm pregnant (and I mean that in the "Oh good Lord, not HER again!" sense - not the "you have a couple of risk factors" sense). I'm an independent little soul, and I don't like being micromanaged. I was not prepared to be told that because of Annelise, Rori is considered High Risk for Autism. And will therefore be evaluated repeatedly over the next few years. Beginning Very Soon. That one hit like a punch to the Solar Plexus. Have I mentioned how much I don't want to have to do all this again? And you cannot imagine the sort of recriminations your brain can find at 3 AM on why this is all happening. *sigh*
One of my co-workers was about 11 weeks pg, and lost the baby last week. :-( So I've sort of been her shoulder - in addition to getting to relive the whole sorry mess myself. Blerg. Though she's bounced back OK, I think. Well, my OB did mention that he was of the opinion that women who already HAVE children tend to take it much harder, as they understand better what was lost.
John is trying to figure out something to do whilst Rori is at her program. It's 1 1/2 hours, twice a week. In BFE. I suggested he try to work on his book. ;-) Most of his writing is on the old laptop. From which Boo has removed a number of keys. So I might do a steampunk mod on the laptop. Hmmmm, need some cherry veneer, leather, brass edging, upholstery tacks, vintage typewriter keys, ... Anybody know where I can get some little tiny LEDs? preferably purple?
I had the strangest dream last night. I was in school. John was in the Naval Academy. ?!? And we were being offered choices for his first post: Brazil, Barbados, or Sumatra. Not sure if this is my subconscious' way of expressing anxiety about potential relocation - or if it just wants to go on a cruise or something.
Probably done banging my head on the whole Guild thing. Ain't nobody listening, anyhow. Erg. Trying to pretend your personal fiefdom is a Kingdom entity tends to go badly. I suspect there are some machinations of a Peerlike nature going on behind the scenes. Which is irritating. I've said everything I've had to say publicly. I wish others would do the same. Elsewise, you just get someone posting "Well, the group/council/whatever wants it THIS way." I'm sorry, I have no way of knowing if that's true. Pretty much I don't care anymore.
John's BIL had a stroke last week. Walking, talking, but with other impairments that look to be permanent. *sigh*
Thursday's evaluation for Rori went OK. But. It took me a while, but I'd come to terms with being considered High Risk when I'm pregnant (and I mean that in the "Oh good Lord, not HER again!" sense - not the "you have a couple of risk factors" sense). I'm an independent little soul, and I don't like being micromanaged. I was not prepared to be told that because of Annelise, Rori is considered High Risk for Autism. And will therefore be evaluated repeatedly over the next few years. Beginning Very Soon. That one hit like a punch to the Solar Plexus. Have I mentioned how much I don't want to have to do all this again? And you cannot imagine the sort of recriminations your brain can find at 3 AM on why this is all happening. *sigh*
One of my co-workers was about 11 weeks pg, and lost the baby last week. :-( So I've sort of been her shoulder - in addition to getting to relive the whole sorry mess myself. Blerg. Though she's bounced back OK, I think. Well, my OB did mention that he was of the opinion that women who already HAVE children tend to take it much harder, as they understand better what was lost.
John is trying to figure out something to do whilst Rori is at her program. It's 1 1/2 hours, twice a week. In BFE. I suggested he try to work on his book. ;-) Most of his writing is on the old laptop. From which Boo has removed a number of keys. So I might do a steampunk mod on the laptop. Hmmmm, need some cherry veneer, leather, brass edging, upholstery tacks, vintage typewriter keys, ... Anybody know where I can get some little tiny LEDs? preferably purple?
I had the strangest dream last night. I was in school. John was in the Naval Academy. ?!? And we were being offered choices for his first post: Brazil, Barbados, or Sumatra. Not sure if this is my subconscious' way of expressing anxiety about potential relocation - or if it just wants to go on a cruise or something.
Probably done banging my head on the whole Guild thing. Ain't nobody listening, anyhow. Erg. Trying to pretend your personal fiefdom is a Kingdom entity tends to go badly. I suspect there are some machinations of a Peerlike nature going on behind the scenes. Which is irritating. I've said everything I've had to say publicly. I wish others would do the same. Elsewise, you just get someone posting "Well, the group/council/whatever wants it THIS way." I'm sorry, I have no way of knowing if that's true. Pretty much I don't care anymore.
