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Too Quiet?
Mar. 8th, 2011 08:01 pmThat's usually a sign that things are not-so-quiet at home. I think that will mean breaking things into multiple updates.
First, the personal.
We have a new Dr. at work. She actually seems to be sane, functional, competent, and motivated. Yay!! She even offered to take Fridays, so that I could have them off. There's a thought, eh? It's a bit early to commit, but it's looking positive. Dare I hope that in the Karmic scheme of things, this is a prelude to John GETTING a job, me dropping my hours, and giving some to her? (She could use them, having been let go from her previous job. Not her fault... it was working for a guy I interviewed with a while back and declined to bite. She made it a lot longer there than I would have). Hope springs eternal, and all that.
Anneliese is due for her every-3-year full assessment. Blerg. This is usually where they tell me all kinds of things I don't want to hear softened by the occasional positive note. And then I get to filter that for Mom. At least she's going to stay in the same room next year. On one hand, that means she's made less progress academically than I had hoped. On the other, I think that she's mentally better in Lori's hands right now. Lori even said tonight, "I'm so glad. If they had taken her away from me this year, I would have cried!" Probably for the best.
Rori has been declared to be on the verge of a breakthrough. Toward that end, they want to assess HER, and put her in the daily program at the Ottawa Area Center. This is speeding up the normal procedure a fair bit. Normally, she wouldn't start that until May 25, when she turns 3. But that's the end of the school year, and the summer program is very minimal this year, due to budget cuts. So they want to strike while the iron is hot and really start to push her rather than put it off until Fall, effectively.
I have mixed feelings. I am glad they're doing everything they can for her. But it does make me feel horribly inadequate as a parent, that I couldn't do what needed to be done for her myself. And now my tiny baby is going to get carted across the county every day to be worked with intensely four days a week. She's causing me to develop a horrible nervous twitch. Every time she lines up her toys. Or walks on her toes, or flips her hand, or spins around. She USED to "bye-bye" and wave and hasn't in months. What DID I do to make anybody think I could begin to handle TWO special needs children? With Anneliese, I lived in denial for years but it wasn't a surprise with a micro-preemie. Rori - this is just a bolt out of the blue. And possibly I'm jumping the gun. I'll go indulge in the real angst on this one in private.
We're planning to maybe take a trip to Chicago this weekend. Everybody can use a little get-away. If the weather and the finances cooperate, we're planning on a visit to the aquarium.
Cross your fingers for me on several levels.
First, the personal.
We have a new Dr. at work. She actually seems to be sane, functional, competent, and motivated. Yay!! She even offered to take Fridays, so that I could have them off. There's a thought, eh? It's a bit early to commit, but it's looking positive. Dare I hope that in the Karmic scheme of things, this is a prelude to John GETTING a job, me dropping my hours, and giving some to her? (She could use them, having been let go from her previous job. Not her fault... it was working for a guy I interviewed with a while back and declined to bite. She made it a lot longer there than I would have). Hope springs eternal, and all that.
Anneliese is due for her every-3-year full assessment. Blerg. This is usually where they tell me all kinds of things I don't want to hear softened by the occasional positive note. And then I get to filter that for Mom. At least she's going to stay in the same room next year. On one hand, that means she's made less progress academically than I had hoped. On the other, I think that she's mentally better in Lori's hands right now. Lori even said tonight, "I'm so glad. If they had taken her away from me this year, I would have cried!" Probably for the best.
Rori has been declared to be on the verge of a breakthrough. Toward that end, they want to assess HER, and put her in the daily program at the Ottawa Area Center. This is speeding up the normal procedure a fair bit. Normally, she wouldn't start that until May 25, when she turns 3. But that's the end of the school year, and the summer program is very minimal this year, due to budget cuts. So they want to strike while the iron is hot and really start to push her rather than put it off until Fall, effectively.
I have mixed feelings. I am glad they're doing everything they can for her. But it does make me feel horribly inadequate as a parent, that I couldn't do what needed to be done for her myself. And now my tiny baby is going to get carted across the county every day to be worked with intensely four days a week. She's causing me to develop a horrible nervous twitch. Every time she lines up her toys. Or walks on her toes, or flips her hand, or spins around. She USED to "bye-bye" and wave and hasn't in months. What DID I do to make anybody think I could begin to handle TWO special needs children? With Anneliese, I lived in denial for years but it wasn't a surprise with a micro-preemie. Rori - this is just a bolt out of the blue. And possibly I'm jumping the gun. I'll go indulge in the real angst on this one in private.
We're planning to maybe take a trip to Chicago this weekend. Everybody can use a little get-away. If the weather and the finances cooperate, we're planning on a visit to the aquarium.
Cross your fingers for me on several levels.
