Contemplating..... or maybe wallowing?

[femkes_follies]

Seriously thinking about not going to Border War. It's wet. It's sticky. It's hard to find a place to pitch the sunshade where we won't block someone else's view - A popup would be OK. Our more "period" looking sunshade has a solid back wall. Not sure I'm up to it with the girls. I don't have any summer garb that isn't falling apart. Anneliese needs a summer chemise. Rori's got nothin'. I've been a lazy seamstress.

And I've sort of hit a wall. Living day-to-day with a special needs child is a little like keeping your ear to the ground, your shoulder to the wheel, and your nose to the grindstone - sometimes it feels like all you have to show for it is a dirty ear, a round shoulder, and a sharp nose. Anneliese gets a little more difficult at events as time goes on, rather than less. She gets bored. And with Rori along, I have even a little less attention for her. Just. Not. Feelin'. It. I don't think anybody who doesn't live this life really gets what it's like. Even Mom and Dad, while they have an inkling, can't quite wrap themselves around the whole idea. Which is why I feel like I really can't leave the girls with anybody for any length of time.

Perhaps this is time for John to got by himself, and maybe even stay for the Hafla. I like the event, I would like to see my peeps. But. It's a tough site - large to drag small ones around, and no where to rest in the shade if you're not camping. And my pals all have other things to be doing - fencing, watching fencing, general Big People stuff.

So maybe I'll shoot for Havoc instead, with everybody fully clothed. Easier to pitch a sunshade, or hang out with somebody camping (Pammy?) And access to water for the little bitty wading pool. Which will keep both girls happy.

What I really need is a garb workday once a week or every other. Not at my house. That fits in my schedule. Where I could go and get stuff done. Wow, that's not needy and demanding or anything, is it? *sigh*

On the upside, I got more mulch laid, so 1/2 the front bed is done. Grass got trimmed, garden got weeded. And I find that constant rotation of chores and tools means that instead of callouses what I have is a rotating set of blisters.

...... *continued wallowing in self pity*

Comments

[mistressarafina.livejournal.com]

I feel your pain even if I don't understand it fully. I know that I can't give you a once every 2 weeks thing, but is it possible for you to come down without the girls over a long weekend and we can get some stuff hammered out?

[femkederoas.livejournal.com]

That might be doable. In the fall, maybe?

[fiadnata.livejournal.com]

If you are able to make it to Pennsic, *please* try to get to the roundtable discussion being led by Doña Mariana Francisco on Wednesday, August 5th at 9:00 AM in A&S Tent 3, entitled: "Following the Dream With Children With Special Needs". If you won't be able to get to Pennsic, let me know, and I will pass your contact information to her and have her e-mail you. You definitely sound like someone who should be a part of the support group she is trying to start.

Let me know if I can help more.

Fiadnata o Gleann Alainn
A&S Class Scheduler
Pennsic University 38
<pennsicasscheduler@gmail.com>

[femkederoas.livejournal.com]

The very concept of camping with Anneliese is enough to make me break out in a cold sweat. Though maybe if she gets easier to handle with age, we might try it at Camp Motel 6.

Please do pass on my contact info!

[fiadnata.livejournal.com]

Email me at the GMail account (given above) with your e-mail address, and I will pass it along to her.

And good luck! :-)