Having a Moment

Ah, the joys of parental self-doubt. Amplified by special needs.

Today's menu:

Am I pushing her into dance class against her will, just because I want her to do it? Does she object from time to time because she doesn't like it? Or just because she'd object to anything that was somebody trying to get her to do something specific?

Would it make enough of a difference to her to try a gluten-free diet... even though she subsists off bread, toast, breaded chicken, and other wheat products? I could try some of King Arthur's GF products... though they're outrageously expensive. And it would be awfully hard to control outside the house. :-/ I don't notice any correlation at all between what she eats and how she acts. I'm pretty convinced it's not an issue for her. But sometimes it seems like it's such a part of dealing with Autism that not doing it makes you a bad Mommy.

If I could/did spend the time with her to go through all the workbooks Mom buys and all the various worksheets that are available.. would it help? Could she BE more if I tried harder.

Repeat for Rori.

>:-(

Having a Bad Momma week.